Why I love it when they pity me. Natalya Gvozdikova: “I don’t like it when they pity me! At a dangerous line

"Once a girl in the audience asked:" What was your rider at the Big Break? " I burst out laughing. What's the rider? Two toilets for the entire hotel and four showers ”, - the star of the Soviet cinema about his career, her husband Yevgeny Zharikov and famous contemporaries.

- When this year I was awarded the title of People's Artist, I did not react to it in any way.

"People's" was attributed to me for a long time. She came to creative meetings and read on posters: "People's Artist of the USSR Natalia Gvozdikova." Do not rip them off and explain to everyone: "Comrades, I am generally deserved." (Laughs.) She began acting in films while still a student at VGIK: she played in "White Dunes", "City of First Love" and in the film "Oh, this Nastya!" - by the way, children still watch it with pleasure. And then it started and went: "Stove-benches", "Kalina Krasnaya", "Big change" ... And after "Born by the Revolution" it was no longer possible to go out into the street - they recognized everywhere, approached. It would be nice just for autographs. They even pestered with proposals to marry. (Laughs.) Only at that time the actors did not think about popularity or how they looked - we were more interested in creativity.

- But you were a beauty!

- Once I came to the anniversary of Roma Kartsev at the House of Actor - he and my sister Lyudmila worked for a long time at the Leningrad Theater of Miniatures, we have known each other for a thousand years. At the banquet she says to me: "Listen, Gvozdikova, you have no idea how beautiful you and Milka were!" And it's funny to me. Beautiful or not - I never thought about it at all. I entered VGIK and immediately fell ill with the profession, I was simply obsessed with it. Already in the second year we played "Masquerade". I am Nina, Kolya Eremenko is Zvezdich, Vadik Spiridonov is Arbenina, Nadezhda Repina is Baroness Shtral. Our master, Sergei Apollinarievich Gerasimov, took the entire course to television, and we live played these passages. It's a pity the archives have not survived.

Until the third year, we were not allowed to act in films, but, despite the prohibitions of respected teachers, we still ran for auditions. Once Tamara Fedorovna Makarova caught me in the corridor of the institute and said directly: “Natalya! If I see your pigtail on Mosfilm again, blame yourself! " At that time I was wearing makeup under my adored Tamara Fedorovna. There were even rumors that we were related. To some extent, it was so, because we were introduced by her close friend Olga Nikolaevna Malozemova. After leaving school, I came to Leningrad to visit my sister Mila. At that time, she had already graduated from the acting department of GITIS and worked with Malozemova at the Theater of Miniatures of Arkady Raikin. And I was just going to enter. Olga Nikolaevna loved my sister and me and, upon learning that I was in the city, invited us to visit. The door opened for me ... Tamara Makarova. Seeing her, I was dumbfounded: he and Gerasimov seemed to me to be the inhabitants of heaven. She took me into the room and offered me something to read. From Olga Nikolaevna Makarova I learned that I want to become an actress. Having coped with the excitement, I read her a poem and a fable, and suddenly the door swings open and Gerasimov flies in: "Do you want to learn from me?" So I became a student of famous teachers.

- They say that after the appearance of “Big Change” on the screen, women all over the country did their hair “like Pauline,” your heroine.

- Yes, people still love this picture. But when we filmed in it, we did not expect how long her life would be. I, at that time yesterday's graduate of VGIK, found myself on the same site with Mikhail Yanshin, Valentina Sperantova, Anastasia Georgievskaya, Rolan Bykov, Lev Durov! Of course, I understood that it was inhuman happiness to be among such a star cast. I was in awe of Yanshin! I remember how dozens of times I looked at the Moscow Art Theater "Freeloader", where he played, and always sobbed.

Mikhail Mikhailovich, despite his age, was so mischievous! Often, in the company of older actors, he told me: "Shut your ears, you are still small." I pretended to cover my ears with my palms, and I myself eavesdropped - he was a master of tales and knew a great many of them. I always started laughing first, which is what I betrayed myself.

- The film turned out to be light, funny, and it is interesting to watch it today. Was it easy to work with?

- Highly! Filmed in the summer in Yaro-Slavl. In between, we ran to the Volga to swim and sunbathe. On the beach they played cards, chatted, and if Rolan Bykov joined us, they laughed incessantly - he was a great storyteller. Misha Kononov had the hardest time. His hero, Nestor Petrovich, who does not leave the library and school, must be white-skinned. Here Misha was sitting aside, under the fungus: in his hands was a book, on his head was a hat in which the Vietnamese were picking rice. Where did he find her! We made fun of him, and he answered: "Art requires sacrifice."

There is a legend that Misha had a difficult character. Nonsense. Here is my cat really with character! Misha did not conflict with anyone at all. Rumors are born quickly. Once they wrote that Savely Kramarov was in love with me and made an offer, then this "fact" of him and my biography was replicated. Nonsense! There was no such thing. Several times he gave me a lift home from Mosfilm, and that's all. It amazed me how Savely drove the car. He drives, and he looks out the window. Until I realized that it was because of a severe squint, I was afraid to ride with him - I kept expecting that we would crash. (With a smile.)

I am always asked about "Big Change". I'm surprised: I starred in three dozen films, and everyone is interested in this one. Once a girl in the audience timidly asked: "What was your rider?" I burst out laughing. What's the rider? Two toilets for the entire hotel and four showers, whoever takes the first is lucky. But relations with colleagues were and remain excellent. We rarely meet, but we know what each other has. It is important. Not so long ago, we flew with Vitya Proskurin from Gelendzhik, so the whole flight rattled. They remembered the shooting, could not stop talking.

- Is it true that you had a tense relationship with the film's director Alexei Korenev because of your intransigence? Did he like you?

- True, but I do not like to remember about it. Do not judge, but you will not be judged. Shortly before his death, Yura Kuzmenkov, who played the starosta 9 "A", told me: "Gvozdikova, you know what was supposed to sing in the film. But we punished you. For communicating more with Zbruev and Kramarov than with us. " Who specifically had a hand in this, I don’t know, and I don’t want to know. Well, I didn't sing, but at my concerts I sing with pleasure.

- When you were very young, you starred in two films by Shukshin. How was this gift of fate taken at that time?

- Then, probably, I did not understand what happiness it was - the roles were small. Young people ask me: “Who did you play in Kalina Krasnaya? I answer that the girl is on the telegraph. And everyone immediately remembers. Shukshin was interested in communicating with me. Before filming, I asked to come to Belozersk early to show where the action is taking place. We walked with him a lot, went to the cinema on the "Gadfly", to the dance floor.

- Maybe he was in love with you?

- Nonsense! Vasily Makarovich often came to our course because they had a good relationship with Gerasimov. Apparently, he liked me, just like Vadik Spiridonov and Nadia Repina - they also starred with him.

- The profession gave you not only people's love, but also your husband - Evgeny Zharikov. Is it true that you didn't like it at first? But after the release of "Three plus two" on the screens, women from all over the country were drying up on it!

- Zhenya graduated from the course of Gerasimov and Makarova four years earlier. As an actor, I knew him very well, but for a long time we did not intersect anywhere. When he came to the institute, for some reason I was not there.
And in 1973 we were introduced to him and given the script of the film "Near These Windows", and I was late for the meeting! Zhenya then got terribly angry. It was only later that my whole life together with him I had to wait for him. And my irritation was caused by his flawless appearance... He starred a lot, often abroad and was dressed with a needle. The haircut is good, the hands are neat - there is nothing to complain about.

In short, we were both not happy with each other. Although I auditioned with several actors, Zhenya and I were approved. As soon as I found out, I went to try on a suit and met Zharikov. I say: “Eugene, congratulations. You have been approved. " - "And you?" - "I am not here, I am out". And she went to herself.

They filmed the picture for almost a year, so there was time to take a closer look at our partner - we practically didn’t part for days. Soon I realized that Zhenya is not at all what he seemed at first. Not so self-confident and flawless. We did not run out of topics for conversation. They loved to remember VGIK and ... to argue. He says: "This song should be sung like this." And I: "No, we sang like this!"

But there was no question of the novel! It began on the set of Born by Revolution in Leningrad in January 1974. And already in November we signed. For this we were released for three days in Moscow. I didn't even think about any dress for the bride - we just registered and returned to the shooting.

Fyodor was born two years later - 12 days before I filmed the final scene. In parallel with "Born by the Revolution" I filmed in Ivano-Frankovsk in the film "Duma about Kovpak", flew back and forth in the ninth month - and nothing! Now I think: My God, what a fool she was! At the airport, I was met by a gas truck and drove over bumps for another 60 kilometers, and then on a cart through the forest for 10 kilometers. To prevent the pregnant woman from shaking, the men twisted their hands in a "chair" and sat me down. The director of the film, Timofey Vasilyevich Revchuk, treated me very tenderly, called Manyunei and, when it was time to go to the stage, shouted: "Where is the shit about the Moscow intelligentsia?" (Laughs.)

- In general, Fedor was born on time, allowing his mother to complete in all projects. How did the young popular artists Gvozdikova and Zharikov cope with the baby?

- We immediately had a nanny. Zhenya's father was a writer and through his famous colleagues he found the housekeeper Polya, a kind, but simple woman. While Fedya slept on the balcony, she washed the diapers. More was required of her. When I heard her say to her son: "Khvedya, Khvedenka," I almost fainted, but endured. Then the second nanny came, my mother and godmother helped. Nanny nannies, but I always had my finger on the pulse and had time to do everything: read books for a child, and drive to museums. The first time Fedya and I were in the Hermitage when he was four years old.

Klara Rumyanova and Oleg Anofriev signed their records with fairy tales and songs and presented them to Fedor, he still keeps them carefully. We had an Accord turntable, with which he quickly learned to operate. He puts on the "Snow Queen", settles down on the carpet, and you can't see it, you can't hear it. God had mercy, Zhenya and I did not know what a squeaking, screaming, stamping child was. Fedya grew up absolutely calm. He is still like that. Of course, it happens, it flares up, so two days ago we had a fight. They yelled at each other - both temperamental, steam should come out. Today he calls me from work and addresses: "Natalya Fedorovna ..." I understand: aha, the tension has not gone away, he is still offended. (Laughs.) But we do not have a quarrel for a long time - this is impossible for our family. How can you not talk with your loved ones ?! Zhenya and I were always the first to go to reconciliation. By temperament Fedor, it seems to me, went to our breed, not to Zharikovskaya. And outwardly he looks more like me - his eyes are green. From dad he inherited golden hands - Zhenya was rukasty. If something broke, my men immediately said: "Don't worry, we'll try to fix it."

- How did you manage not to spoil your only son?

- They didn't do anything special - they just didn't lisp with him. I was more demanding of him than Zhenya. But she often gave up the slack, as soon as he heard his laugh. If Zhenya and I fought, the son could defuse the situation with a joke and laughed so contagiously that we also began to laugh.

- And dad connived more and more?

- It used to be. And I had to lead them. For example, when the boy grew up and I realized that it was time for him to get behind the wheel, I told my husband: "Evgeny Ilyich, get up and forward with songs, go for a drive with your son." I drove them out in any weather. As a result, Fedya is a great car driver, just like his dad. Only he did not follow the car at all, he went to the service when he was already losing parts on the way. (Laughs.) And it’s not to say that he was sloppy, just such a devil-may-care attitude.

- Who was your housekeeper?

- Me too. My sister and I have been taught this by my mother since childhood. From the age of eleven, Mila and I took turns preparing lunches, dinners, and cleaning. But when I came home from filming, a clean apartment most often awaited me. Fedka mostly vacuumed, and Zhenya wiped the sinks - I can’t stand it organically when they are dirty.

- So you are the perfect mother and wife?

- What an ideal one, the Lord is with you! But what to do? I have a family. The husband and son always had to have lunch and dinner and compote. (Laughs.)

- During the life of Yevgeny Ilyich, you and him were sometimes called "fried cloves", where did this come from?

- “Born by the Revolution” was filmed at the Dovzhenko Film Studio, and there was a cashier, an elderly woman, lean, strict, with a cigarette. If there was a queue at the cashier for a salary, she shouted from the window: “Fried cloves, come! Guys, give up your seat, they need to shoot ”.
So “fried cloves” took root, although I didn't like it. Some funny nicknames always stuck to my surname. As soon as not called! And Vintikova, and Shpuntikova, and Gaechkina.

- Were you and Yevgeny Ilyich different? Or are they similar?

- Absolutely different. He was open, and I find it difficult to get along with strangers. They say about me all my life, since childhood, that I am arrogant, you can't ride on a horned goat, but in fact it's just a defensive reaction. For Zhenya, any communication was a joy. V Soviet time when it was impossible to buy anything without cronyism, I was content with what I had. For me, it is better to gnaw crackers than ask someone for help with food. Not because I'm so proud, just uncomfortable.

And Zhenya went to the store: “Great, girls. So, Natasha has made a list, give us what you have here. " The saleswomen loved it. They will make him sit down, he talks to them, teases some stories, gives advice.

- But the husband-earner is wonderful!

- It's good. But there were times when I felt embarrassed. Suppose Zhenya turned around after two continuous lines, a policeman stops us and hears from Zharikov: "What are the difficulties?" I was stunned.

- Artist!

- Of course, he was a great artist. But in life there was no artistry, swagger and other things. There was only incredible sociability. We also treated lies in different ways. If there is an opportunity to tell the truth, I will say - I am a truth-lover. Therefore, it is probably sometimes said that I have a difficult character. And Zharikov was a writer, Munchausen.

- In married couples, one often loves more, while the other allows himself to be loved. And you?

- Zhenya loved me more than I loved him. My sister always told me about this. She probably knew better from the outside. But I also loved him very much.

- If you live life anew, would you marry Zharikov, would you become an actress?

- I think I would have lived differently. She would have made other mistakes, perhaps she did not marry Zhenya. (With a smile.) After all, before him I had a husband, whom I also loved - we lived with him for four years. Many are trying to find out who he is, what his name is, but it doesn't matter at all. My mother repeated: "Just don't give birth to children from him." I saw that it was not destiny for us to be together. And Zharikov before me lived for 12 years in his first marriage, but it did not work out either, but with me - 37 years ...

My mom adored him and he paid her in return. Just a perfect relationship. He called her Nina, she called him Zhenyurka.

- Was Yevgeny Ilyich's departure unexpected? They wrote that he had an old wound - more than 40 years ago on the set, he fell from a horse and badly injured his leg.

- I would not like to discuss this topic. Zhenya was seriously ill. No wonder back in 1997 he was given a disability of the 1st group. I will not say that he fought the disease to the last. He was tired of the situation in which he drove himself. Tired of the diseases that began to haunt him. It was not easy for him, because he was involved in sports all his life - fencing, swimming, equestrian sports. And when a series of troubles began, he tried to overcome them to the best of his ability, but failed. His life was slightly prolonged by the operation, on which Fedor and I insisted. Zhenya himself was afraid of her. But otherwise a wheelchair would have been waiting for him. My son and I did everything we could: injections, compresses, massages. “Zhenya, it's time to go to the pool. Get ready. " - "I'm bored there." And I answered him categorically: "To the pool!" He could not live helpless, so he left.

- How did you get through the grief?

- Very hard. I don’t want to talk about it: I don’t like to see myself angry. And I gave my word not to discuss difficulties in our family.

- Is it your joint choice that you and Fedor live together, or do you not want to let your son go?

- He has the opportunity to live separately, but he does not want to. It is completely unprofitable for him - his mother will cook, pet. (With a smile.) Fedor has never been married. I got ready before the New Year and here he calls at night: “Mom, I’ll come right now. With things. " I did not ask questions and delve into the essence. I don’t want to be guilty. He decides to marry, for God's sake, - he will live with this woman, not me. But that didn’t happen. In general, my son doesn't like it when I talk about him. Apparently, our profession with Zhenya left its mark. Fedor protects his personal life.

- What is Fedor doing?

- He is a translator from English and French languages, his work is related to both journalism and jurisprudence.

- What advice would you give Fedor based on your experience family life?

“Even when he was little, I kept repeating:“ Never lose your self-esteem. And if you need advice, turn to your mother. " I went through a lot: I had friends who betrayed, partings happened, I experienced pain, but my mother and older sister were always there, whom I absolutely trusted.

I have no one dearer than my son and never will. We have developed a sincere relationship with him. I hope that I will become a support for him in difficult times.

- Who do you rely on in your life?

- I solved all the most difficult life problems myself. I do not like it when they pity me. Although I am terribly sentimental: I cry when I watch war films or see poverty-stricken old people in the store, but I don’t glow from my troubles, no. I'd rather take a diary - I'm already keeping it long years- and I will throw out all my experiences. You know, it helps! There are problems that we must deal with ourselves - other people's advice in such cases is useless.

- What are you doing now?

- Recently I went to a screen test, and then Sasha Pankratov-Cherny calls - we have been friends with him for a long time. I say: "I have such a difficult text ..." He was amazed: "Gvozdikova, are they still trying you ?!" I have an excellent director who knows which scenario to choose and which one is better to refuse. Therefore, I am not ashamed of all my roles. Sometimes young people ask if it was difficult to adjust to the new cinema. Difficult, but what to do? It is impossible to live on our pension - that means you need to rely on yourself, and the Lord will help. If before I worried, cried, when something did not work out with work, then with age I became calmer: one thing did not happen - it means that something else will happen. And life confirms this rule. Of course, I want to work - this is a great incentive.

I rarely go to the subway, and on Easter I went down to the subway. People came up and spoke good words. And then I see two women of my age, one pushes the other under the elbow and whispers loudly: “Look, look, Gvozdikova! Oh, what has she become ... "

Yes, I have changed. I wanted to go up to them and say: "Listen, girlfriends, look at yourself in the mirror." They probably think that the actors are sculpted from a different dough. We, like everyone else, get sick, grow up - I don't want to use another word. It is clear that we are changing outwardly. Someone resorts to plastic surgery, but I don't need it. I will no longer play young. And in general, I'm happy with my life, it's a sin to complain. These days I am starting to act in a new, very interesting project - life goes on.

Alla ZANIMONETS, Telenedelya LLC, Moscow (specially for ZN), photo by Natalia LOGINOVA, Russian Look

A family: son - Fedor (36 years old)

Education: graduated from VGIK (workshop of Sergei Gerasimov and Tamara Makarova)

Career: starred in more than 30 films, including: "Oh, this Nastya!" People's Artist of Russia

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I like it when they pity me! And I can't understand if this is a problem - what can this be talking about? Since childhood, my mother felt sorry for me, my father was strict. Now I also feel directly that there is a lack of love, and when they pity me, it seems to me that by doing so they express their love, care, they take care of me. I myself have high demands to myself and I do not always know how to appreciate myself, I often criticize myself, but I don’t know how to feel sorry for myself, it seems to me that then I relax and this is “bad.” What does it say that do I love when they pity me?

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Five years ago, Nina T. had to switch from comprehensive school to school for visually impaired and blind children. Now, having received a certificate of maturity, the girl is storming one of the capital's universities. What this young Muscovite had to endure in her incomplete eighteen years is known only to herself and to her close people, parents, grandparents, who do not allow despair and lose faith in the future.

When nothing can change

Nina began to lose her eyesight at the age of twelve. Moreover, doctors still find it difficult to name the exact cause of her illness. The most likely version is a complication after a badly suffered flu. No matter how the ophthalmologists tried to help the little girl, her eyesight continued to deteriorate rapidly.

Those were very difficult years, - recalls Nina. - The most terrible thing for me, still quite a child, was to realize that every day you see worse and worse, but you are not able to change anything. I remember how I cried bitterly when one morning I did not see my mother come into my room. Only a vague silhouette against the background of the window ...

Nina was lucky with her family: they did not love her less, as, alas, it often happens, they tried to support the girl, although they themselves had a hard time. All household chores in a friendly family were taken over by the retired grandparents. The parents worked in several places in order to be able to treat their daughter with the best specialists. Strange as it may sound, but in this sense, Nina was really lucky in comparison with many of her peers who have similar problems.

But old friends from an ordinary school, according to the girl, betrayed her.

Pitying conversations that I am now disabled and that it is not interesting to play with me, I heard all the time, - she recalls. - Now, having grown older, I understand that the problem was not that there were angry and cruel children around me, although there were those who took pleasure in stealing glasses from me at recess or calling me a “blind chicken”. I think the fact is that in childhood, no one ever explains to most children who people with disabilities are. I confess, until the trouble happened to me, my ideas and attitudes to other people's pain were also very superficial. Could I at that time provide moral support to a classmate who got into the same situation? I don’t know ... I don’t think so. Of course, this is bad, because now I understand that it was the pity of those around me that unsettled me, forced me to give up.

At a dangerous line

Nina recalls how one day, standing at the edge of the roadway, she suddenly decided that it would be easier for everyone if she steps under the wheels of passing cars. The firm, but at the same time surprisingly even voice of the father standing next to me stopped: "Don't you dare!"

How he felt my mood, I still can't understand, - the girl admits. - But one time was enough for me to understand: this is not the way. Not for me, not for my loved ones.

According to psychologists, the tendency to suicide is very common among people who suddenly, for one reason or another, have lost their health, the ability to feel full. It is especially difficult for adolescents who still know life so little, but remember themselves well, healthy, full of strength, mobile, sighted ... That is why at this time special attention, care and, of course, support of everyone who surrounds the captured illness of the child. There is no place for tears, pitiful lamentations at the head of the bed in such a situation. When it became very difficult to study in a mass school, Nina was transferred to a special institution for children suffering from the same ailment. I found friends quickly and easily: the friendly girl was willingly accepted into the team. At the end of the ninth grade, Nina realized that she could no longer read and write. I had to urgently learn the Braille method for the blind with the help of experienced teachers.

Now I see only a very bright light, - says Nina. - But I perfectly remember the world, all the colors and shades. Especially often I dream that I am reading.

This year, after graduating from school, Nina and her parents had to convince the university administration for a very long time that she would be able to study on an equal basis with other students. At first, they did not even want to take documents from a blind girl who dreamed of becoming a psychologist. True, the perseverance and experience of parents in communicating with officials of various instances nevertheless defeated the doubts of the selection committee. “So I won't name this university,” smiles Nina. “I’m sure I’ll do it, so I don’t want to spoil my relationship with future teachers.”

In fact, it does not matter at all which higher educational institution the heroine of this story arrives today. Having phoned about a dozen of the capital's universities, I was convinced that not even a visually impaired applicant is expected in any of them. The motives for which I was politely refused are, in general, the same everywhere: “It will be very difficult for such a student to study, we will have to draw up a special syllabus, but how and where will he look for special literature if he cannot read simple textbooks? " But even if you forget for a moment that, in principle, the organization educational process for everyone who enrolled in this or that university is the sacred duty of its administration, it is completely incomprehensible how a citizen of a country who is recognized as capable, and, therefore, not limited in rights, including to education, can be refused to accept documents.

By the way, I don't really count on the help of any officials, - says Nina. - Thank God, I have parents who are ready to help me, I have a good memory, I can record lectures on a dictaphone and master special literature, I think I will be able to. V last resort, something especially difficult can be read to me by my mother. Yes, I still cannot do everything without outside help. Yes, I'm lucky that there are people nearby who are ready to help me. But, understand, they do not help me dress, prepare food: they taught me to do it myself. And the only thing I need now is to help me become self-sufficient in my chosen profession. I don't want to depend on anyone. I dream that people would treat me like a full-fledged person. I do not like it when they pity me.

I know myself, I will teach others

This girl is one of those who are ready to achieve their goal at any cost. And to prove to many children, adolescents, adults who are in the same situation that everything is possible in life. The main thing is to want to overcome difficulties. I confess that even among absolutely healthy people I have not often met such a benevolent, bright and cheerful person as Nina. In her free time, she plans to come to her school to communicate with ... the parents of visually impaired and blind children studying there.

I really want to try to convince the adults, - says Nina, - that no matter how terrible the child's diagnosis is, in no case should you give up. The faith and support of loved ones can work miracles. It is very offensive when the parents themselves do not give their child the opportunity to learn, to develop as a person, believing that he is not up to it. Everything on the shoulder! Just be with him and help him learn to live fully! Thanks to my family: they have never uttered the word “disabled” in relation to me in all these years.